lyrics:

stars sparkle bright in my mind, in my mind
pink fluffy clouds shaped by clowns float by
my eyes are closed solitude fills the space
i need a way out my mind, out my mind

but i’m floating by, floating by’s what i do
i get by floating by, floating by

i hear the world all around as it spins
a thousand eyes blink at me, blink at you
a ball rolls down an unending hill
i need a way out my mind, out my mind

but i’m floating by, floating by’s what i do
i get by floating by, floating by

lyric discussion:

in these verse lyrics i wanted to convey some images i commonly see when i am disassociating and kind of have them come out of no where and make no sense as that is how they feel for me sometimes. in the first verse i went with things that came to me in the moment looking around in my mind and my current surroundings. for example it was around sunset and i saw the pink clouds outside and imagined a clown at an amusement park making cotton candy that were the clouds i could see. in the second verse i went more with my common visuals i often see a kaleidoscope of eyes and i used to always feel like a ball on a track that was in no control of its trajectory when i was in college and was fully disassociated from reality just letting things happen as they did. i think these lyrics kind of all just feel random and i dont love them, but it makes sense with what i was going for as well so i dont hate them. if i revisit this song i will probably rewrite the verses as i was just going to time while writing these and just wanted to go with the first thing to pop in my head for creative writing reasons. the chorus is pretty simple to me it just came out of my mouth the first time i tried to sing a chorus on this over my backing track. i am just floating by in order to get through what i do im not very grounded and its very airy. i do like these lyrics as i think they are nice and simple and led to a very pretty floaty airy melody here.

theory discussion:

for a while i have had the idea to base something in a c major/a minor deceptive split key. i went about that in this by basing everything around a four measure repetitive chord structure of I IV V vi in c major creating a deceptive cadence ostinato that make it feel like the vi chord at the end (an a minor chord) could possibly the the tonal center. [that was a run on sentence and i don’t want to fix it ;p] i further emphasized this up in the chorus by adding a drone on a to really begin to push things toward feeling the minor key as the tonal center, but kept the light airy syth keys in this section in c major to disguise this and add a light airy feel. the post chorus section is where i really emphasized the a minor key and tried to make if feel like things were spinning and going off tilt. in this section i added more drones on a this time raising by an octave every measure to give it a rising feeling. i also added a quick 16th note whole tone scales starting and ending on a that are pretty subtle to give a dreamy feel. finally i added a repetitive almost alarm or warning type sound that still feels semi friendly by being a fun doot sound, but i put it on alternating quarter notes from a to d# which is a tritone, the interval said to cause the most tension. also the d# is a part of the whole tone scale on a so it hopefully would not sound too out of nowhere. finally i stripped back to just the piano ostinato and repeated everything to give a break and a moment of calm after the chaos only to repeat the same cycle exactly again.